Day 43-August 6, 2001
Today I got ready to move on. I had the coupon for a free three nights stay in a condo in Banff but when I called the place I was told they were all filled up. Darn! I should of called earlier but I had no I idea when I would arrive. Serendipity is the theme of this trip. Oh,well.
I felt freezing coming on. I was considering changing course and not going into Canada. I was afraid of the mountains, the unknown, and The Trans Canada Highway!
I used to have my second graders play a game called “Freeze or Hide”. It was a game of tag in which a “fox” would try to capture “rabbits”. The rabbits had two safety choices, hiding by standing in a space within a hoop on the ground or freezing, standing perfectly still. In life, I had learned to freeze emotionally. Having had a bad childhood and an even worse marriage, I sometimes relied on numbness to survive. But freezing doesn’t solve anything because nothing gets done and, therefore, nothing gets better.
I wanted to change myself on this trip and become a better me. I had to think, so……..
(1)I did some research. Got good directions. Looked at alternatives routes and various approaches.
(2) Broke the whole thing into steps. One stretch of highway at a time.
(3) Knew I was done with sights in Glacier. Needed something different.
(4) Looked at the positives of the upcoming situation. Why was it all worth stretching myself a bit? Answer: I wanted to see the unique wildlife in The Canadian Rockies.
(My journal for this trip!)
(5) Called up my faith that told me everything would be okay.
(6) Reminded myself of my purpose, to take this trip and maybe someday write about it.
And then I recalled the things I had read on this trip. Every time an individual has a positive victory, an accomplishment, a move in the right direction, it is a win for everyone.
My menopausal odyssey continues, ever onward and upward. I’m going to do it! 70 days or bust!